This sucks. Having no one to talk to about everything; anyway.. I have the opportunity to get out of this town, the state but I’m scared to leave my mother… my family. What I learned this year is that death is unpredictable and I really don’t know how’d I’d handle losing my mother and living in a different state. I’d hate myself for not spending time with her and for being so far away. Is that stupid of me to let that hold me back? I’m not happy in this state i live in. I find myself so miserable it’s hard to function. All I desire is to have a better life then what I do now….
Why do I allow myself to remain scared of things that might improve my life. But what if I get rejected from a job I’m trying to apply to? I don’t feel like im good for anything or at anything. No confidences for me. .. which I hate so much but I can’t seem to change it. I just want to be happy I want my family happy..
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